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Thursday, April 15, 2004
ugh. this is the 3rd. i hate it. hope it wudn't get erase again. it's getting late. and am not yet home. my pc is broken and need to go to cafe. ok, easy...need to re-think and re-type it again. DANG!
as i was saying, my bf and i got an arguement or in layman's term, lover's quarrel. it started w/ a tag then the next thing i knw, we're fighting. i admit, its my fault trying to win the arguement. also, 3/4 of it was my fault coz i forgot to tell him bout the tag. sorry, i have dis 'shizuku syndrome' i guess. and hey, am jst a human being. am not perfect. i do commit mistakes u knw. this afternoon, he went here. i introduced him to my cuzn and besfrend. i planned on introducing him to my mom but postponed it, some other tym maybe. on our way to quiapo, we discussed bout the said fight. i want him to tell me everything i need to knw so i can make adjustment for us and so to avoid this feeling of 'taken for granted'. ok. am not a perfect gf after all. but am trying my best coz i love him. b4 he left, we ended it. it's finally over.
well, we can't avoid it can we? there's no such thing as perfect relationship. it got ups and downs. i guess, we survived...for now. there are still coming on our way but w/ the help and support of our frends, i guess, we can make it.
thanks to arashi-kun, lea lea anakz and twen for the support, comfort and advices.
thanks to julie dear, siobski, kezzy bunso, bes mouse and tita ingrid for the comment at my other blog.
and thanks to pao for the grammatical usage.
that's all for now. bye.
»Koudelka«
Posted at 11:24 pm by koudelka
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
bah. not again. for the 2nd tym, need to re-type all wat i jst type a while ago.
ok, i'll be away for a while. going to the province. though i dnt want to, i need to go w/ my mom. its not that i dnt want to take a vacation there, but w/ my mom, i dnt think i'll be enjoying my stay coz she is there and she'll jst restrain me of doing some things i want to do.
today, it is my bf and i's 5th monthsary. am happy coz we made it dis far. but of course, we were helped and supported by some of our friends. though there were times wen we're in the brick of giving up, we didn't. y? coz we love each other dat much dat we can't let go of our relationship. hope its for keeps. *^-^*
and...am kinda piss. my pc is broke and am jst renting in a cafe. haven't bought a new one yet. some of the costumer here are annoying. some are jerky as if there are some in their butts. some are annoyingly nosy. and the girl in charge here is kinda naive. a moment ago, wen i told her dat my monitor went off coz of the guy seated opposite me moved the wire at the back of the monitor, she shut the pc off. kewl. and i jst finished my entry in my private blog. so, i needed to start all over again. nice. oh well. but, the i-net here is ok. it is satisfying enough, jst the people around. oh well. no use in ranting here, neh? i shud cheer up coz its a special day. hehe. dats all.
CIAO~
»Koudelka«
Posted at 11:40 pm by koudelka
Monday, April 05, 2004
well, i dnt knw wat came into me and i lyk making new accounts. lolz. oh well...
i got 3 blogs already. one from tabulas, the other ones a secret and this, which is also a secret blog. y blog here? i jst want to keep my true feelings for myself. i dnt want people to read dis coz many people can read my blog in tabulas.
ok, last april 2, i attended my cousin's (atchi mi) wedding to stand as their witness. good thing she asked me to or they'll have to give tip to some employee who is willing to participate as their witness. it was a civil wedding. so dats wat happens to a civil wedding. am curious bout it. lolz. at dat moment, i dunno wat to feel. i felt envious and a bit jealous.
envy coz she is now happy w/ the man he loves and jealous coz she'll be having her own family and she won't have tym to hang out w/ me.
but its ok. if she is happy, am happy too. i love my cousin dats why i want her to be happy w/ her life.
ott, also, i jst realize, wat happened to dem (atchi mi and her bro and sis) can be considered as their "karma". wat did they do? wen we were young and we lived w/ them, they used to bully me. am such a crybaby i only cried silently in the dark. wen we transferred to another house, they lived w/ my other aunt. den, they experienced the treatment they use to do to me. my older cuzns bully dem and they treated them as if they were their maids and houseboy.
but instead of abandoning her, i stand by her side. am not lyk my cuzns. they're jst our cousins in good tym but not in bad tyms. they are ashame of atchi mi coz she is pregnant. how pathetic of them. as if she is not a part of the family...talking bout close family bonding...oh well.
karma is powerful...maybe they thought karma is not real? i knw, God will punish them...wen the ryt tym comes. *^-^*
»Koudelka«
Posted at 08:31 pm by koudelka
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