well, i dnt knw wat came into me and i lyk making new accounts. lolz. oh well...

i got 3 blogs already. one from tabulas, the other ones a secret and this, which is also a secret blog. y blog here? i jst want to keep my true feelings for myself. i dnt want people to read dis coz many people can read my blog in tabulas.

ok, last april 2, i attended my cousin's (atchi mi) wedding to stand as their witness. good thing she asked me to or they'll have to give tip to some employee who is willing to participate as their witness. it was a civil wedding. so dats wat happens to a civil wedding. am curious bout it. lolz. at dat moment, i dunno wat to feel. i felt envious and a bit jealous.

envy coz she is now happy w/ the man he loves and jealous coz she'll be having her own family and she won't have tym to hang out w/ me.

but its ok. if she is happy, am happy too. i love my cousin dats why i want her to be happy w/ her life.

ott, also, i jst realize, wat happened to dem (atchi mi and her bro and sis) can be considered as their "karma". wat did they do? wen we were young and we lived w/ them, they used to bully me. am such a crybaby i only cried silently in the dark. wen we transferred to another house, they lived w/ my other aunt. den, they experienced the treatment they use to do to me. my older cuzns bully dem and they treated them as if they were their maids and houseboy.

but instead of abandoning her, i stand by her side. am not lyk my cuzns. they're jst our cousins in good tym but not in bad tyms. they are ashame of atchi mi coz she is pregnant. how pathetic of them. as if she is not a part of the family...talking bout close family bonding...oh well.

karma is powerful...maybe they thought karma is not real? i knw, God will punish them...wen the ryt tym comes. *^-^*

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